I Will & I Can
I'm not going to watch myself fall and break again and do nothing about it. Not this time, not ever.
I will and I can.
On a "lighter" note, I ATE FREAKING A LOT TODAY LIKE TOTALLY EQUIVALENT TO A PIG! FIRST THERE WAS CREAM PASTA FROM WEST KINGDOM. THEN I DRANK ICE MILO, THEN I ATE ANOTHER PLATE OF CHICKEN DRUMSTICK RICE OMG FAAAAAAT! NO THAT IS NOT THE END. I DRANK A CUP OF APPLE JUICE AND THEN I STILL FELT THIRSTY SO I BOUGHT ANOTHER CUP OF ICE MILO.
I SHOULD SERIOUSLY JUST CUT MYSELF UP INTO PIECES. So fat! Omg there is something seriously wrong with me. I was very angry apparently at everything today. So angry that even though my dinner portion was way too much, and even though I halfed the portion, intending only to eat one half of it, I ATE EVERYTHING OMG. I BINGE WHEN I AM UPSET/ANGRY WHICH IS BAD. BECAUSE I WILL LOOK LIKE A PIG. FAT. ANGRY. FAT ANGRY PIG.
On a lighter note, I am very happy because I'm disciplined enough to set aside $10 this week, and hopefully every week for donations to UN World Food Programme. Because there are people dying if you care enough for the living make a better place for you and for me. I think I am really crazy at this point of time. I feel very motivated now because I am angry/upset. Which is a bad-turned-good thing. Once in a while now, I get really sudden bursts of determination when I face an emotional turmoil, and this is what helps me to do well. So it is really a blessing in disguise. POSITIVITY YO! I will not allow myself to be at the mercy of myself or others.
I AM GOING TO WORK HARD NOW BECAUSE I CAN'T CONTAIN MY MOTIVATION. THIS IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOD. LIFE IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOD. GOD IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
